Shady-Knight

Been a while since I wrote a journal, eh?  So a lot has happened during the latter half of last year, such as some social media platforms deciding to nuke themselves by censoring adult content and alienating a sizable portion of their community in one fell swoop, as well as politics continuing to ruin everything they touch.  As for me, I needed a break from writing for a while, as well as deal with some real-life stuff that I'd rather not talk about.  But now, as of yesterday, I'm ready to grab a pen again and go back to writing stories again.  To begin with, I decided to workshop some of my already existing stories based on criticism I received.  Now, those few of you who stuck with me for years know that I've re-written the same chapters more time than should ever be necessary, and I want to assure you that this is not going to be the case this time.  While some chapters will see more extensive changes than others, others will only undergo slight, sometimes very minor touch-ups, while others still will be left as is.  Once this is done, which I don't know how long it will take but knowing me it probably will take a while, it's back to making regular chapters again.

In other news, I am now a proud Switch owner!  If you wish to add me to your friend list, you can go ahead.  My friend code is: SW-1141-0898-9605

Title says it all.  I feel a little more motivated to keep on writing now that I took that break.  That being said, I don't think I'm gonna be much involved with Felarya anymore outside just being a vehicle for my stories and characters.  A thread on a certain vore-affiliated forum that shall remain nameless popped up recently about the state of Felarya, and though very short, it made some very good points about the state of the setting.  To make a not-so-long story short, there are hardly any writers left, it's difficult if not impossible to tell what is canon and what isn't, and that there doesn't seem to be a discernible road map of the setting.  Some people who responded to the thread even admitted that they have no idea what Felarya even is *about*.  On a forum where Karbo is popular enough to get his own dedicated sub-forum, that should tell you the current state of affairs quite nicely.

With Felarya showing no sign of recovering, I see no reason to dedicate myself to fleshing out a stagnant setting with a functionally dead user base.  At this point, I'm more concerned with putting the ideas centering my own characters in written form for people to read and enjoy.

Over the past couple of weeks, I haven't uploaded anything despite my efforts to write every day of the week.  My motivation has been drained substantially and I'm no longer having any fun writing.  For the sake of brevity, I'm not gonna go on an angry diatribe - I have a lot grievances I wish to air, but I'll just go straight to the chase instead.  To put it bluntly, I see no future in Felarya.  The active community, and when I say that, I mean the people who actively participated on the forum and tried to expand this fictional universe, has dwindled immensely over the years.  Now there's only a handful of people who even frequents the forum anymore.  The place has completely stagnated and is now effectively dead.  This combined with the lack of quality control over the work that makes it into the dA group, the lack of proper direction in which the setting is headed, and the overall lack of interest to make Felarya a layered universe that isn't just about giantess, vore and yuri, has left me with little hope that the place will change for the better, when it had years to iron out fundamental issues with how the community was managed, and chose to do nothing and let more and more problems accrue instead.  On top of that, I haven't been in the best of moods these past days.  I've been wrestling with a lot of self-doubt over my life situation as a 28-year-old unemployed and not really independent man, which has affected the pace at which I'm writing.  When I'm not being productive, I stress out and beat myself over my lack of productivity, which only further limits how productive I can be.  I think this is as good evidence as any that it's time for me to call it quits, if only to escape the stress.

EDIT: I apologize for my rant if you happened to have read my journal yesterday, Karbo.  I realize the timing could not have been worse given the problems you are currently wrestling with in your life.  It was never my intention to beat you while you were down.  While I do have several issues with the way Felarya is being handled and I legitimately think something has been missing from your recent art, the way I blew my gasket and vented all my frustration on you was unacceptable and there was no justifying my vitriolic behavior.

Why are all of my comments automatically labeled as spam even if there's literally nothing offensive in them?

EDIT: It looks to have been fixed.  Finally.

Exactly two years from today, I will have officially completely wasted my twenties spending all day every day in front of my computer, doing nothing worthwhile or otherwise contributing to society in a meaningful way like a valuable human being.